I'm in a bad mood. I want these shoes really bad.
I went to the stupid gyno today. It was real awkward and now my vaj hurts.
If I had a dollar for every time I had to wait around for Chris.
I'd have a million billion jillion dollars.
Waaaah. Oh well. I'm over it. I want Taco Bell really bad.
I'm getting this birth control implant thing. And they have to cut my arm open and put it in there. And it makes me not get pregnant for 3 years. SWEET !
I want to get my nose pierced. I want my boy friend to call me so I can see him and play with my puppy.
Whatever man.
I'm cold and I might nap for the rest of my life.

I met Nero today. Hes perfect. I think he loves me. I ate to much today. And slept to much.

REAL BAD MOOD.








Fuck I need out of here.

It has been brought to my attention

That people are lurking my blog. Stop it please. Get a life.


I fucking LOVE Trevor Hall.
Seriously. I could cum from his voice.


I'm waiting for Christopher to come get me.
I'm in a bad mood.
Although I did make a fucking delish veggie burger on the grill today.
I've never grilled before and I'm impressed with my skills.
I'm staying up real late tonight.
And sleeping in real late tomorrow.
I literally can't stop listening to that song.
kthanksbai.

Today was such a good day.
I love you,
You bimbo.

Ohay I'm a man in a suit. With a tree as a face. There is an Eskimo committing suicide off the side of my head. Waaaaaah.
I love everything about Alex Pardee.
I have so much mascara on its hurting my eyes.
I saw Chris today for a lil. It was raining like CRAZYYY. And his windows were all foggy. And he called me up yelling about how he was going to die on the way here. And he didn't Hes a drama queen. There were like 10 jillion earth worms in my drive way. Like the extra juicy gross ones. Not into it. I did my hair SO cute today. I'm so proud of myself. Every time I do something cute to my hair I feel like I shouldn't have dropped out of cos. But I'm only good at doing a certin kind of hair styles. Which wouldn't work out very well if I worked in a salon.
Tomorrow me and Christopher are going on a road trip. To some show. And hes gona show me off cuz I am his "trophy girl friend"!
Tonight my old best friend Christina Queen Lockhart and I WERE suppose to have a sleep over. But shit got fucked. And I'm upset about it. I miss her. And I miss us. And I miss how I was when her and I were BFFL'S. But I do not miss how I looked back then. YUCK. Ever greasy and scene. SICK.
Oh yeah and I was beating up Chris the other day.
Yanno.
Straight kick'n his ass.
And he put up his stupid arm to block me. And it hit my forearm real hard. And now I have this sick red and purple bruise. And it was swollen. And then it stopped hurting. And he grabbed me and squeezed it. And now it hurts again. Real dick move.
I'm obviously rambling.
I'm excited about our mini road trip tomorrow.
K fuck off bye.

Went to the movies and out to eat with Chris and his friends.
Dating again.
Nice.

Over it

Not surprised. Some people can just never make it work and I guess that is the case here. Sucks cuz I really was in love with him,and I was trying to make it work. Oh well. I'm over being in a relationship. I guess its not my thing. Omar is going to rehab tomorrow. Wahhh. Now I have no one to drink with every weekend.I have nothing else to talk about.


Fuck off.

I jus wanna come home from running errands all day.
And be able to lay in bed and kiss my boy friend for the rest of the night.
This sucks.
I haven't been in Chris' bed in so long.
I'm in the worse mood ever.
My hear hurts the worse.

Wahhh wahhhh

I'm sooooooooo coldddd.
Today I went to a bbq with Chris.
And I met his best friend.
And his best friend's girl friend.
It was nice.
I ate veggie burgers and drank this fancy organic green tea shit.
And kissed my boy friend a lot.
Good day.

Alex Pardee

I don't feel good. I'm not in a good mood.
There is not one single thing that my mom hasn't bitched about today.I'm mad none of the places I applied to have called. I need a job and I need to be moved out before summer is over or I'm killing myself!!!
I need something new and exciting in my life. I really want a puppy. Lolz. But that isn't happening til I move out.

I want him to be miiiine!!!!







I love Chris.
I wish I was kissin him right now.
Thats all.
Fuck off.

On again.



For good,faggot.

I miss being really happy,over a long period of time.
Its always like...I'm REALLY REALLY happy for two or three days. Then I get super pissed or bummed.

I seriously cannot wait to get on that plane and be in Texas. I'm not even that excited for Mexico anymore. I don't want anything to do with the swine flu !!
I don't know what I feel like doing today. I wana go camping real bad.
Buy me new pink sunny's please.
KThnxBai.

Well Damn

Looks like some things will never change.I got up early and did my hair cute. Was suppose to go on a pic nic with Chris. But things got fucked up. So I hung out with people at the park. And ate so much. And got the sickest sun burn ever. Its so ugly and it hurts sooo bad.
But anyways. I've literally never met some one who was such a let down. I know I suck as a person,and I'll probably never be a real good girl friend. But I was actually gunnin for this one.


I love Alex Pardee. His art makes me cum. I think I might start drawing again. I need something to kill the time now that I've given up on having any type of social relationship.

Alx Prdy

Chris and I are dating again. We're in love. I went shopping for like 4 hours today. It was serious. Got super stocked up on hair bleach. So I can keep dying my rootz. I 'm bored. I miss Chris. We're going to some lake thing to have a picnic!! So cute. I'm so stoked.
Just got home. Eatin. Goin out.



<3!

Good Good Good.

Bad mood

I'm so irritated today. Job hunted. Met up with Bromar. Maaaaan fuck Gates. I can't even walk to the park with out some ignorant black person trying to talk to me,or beep at me. Its so annoyinggggg. My lips are so dry and they hurrrrrtttttt.



Soooooo,I really wish I could have spent my day with this one really cute boy. I kinda miss kissing him. And I kinda miss laying in his bed all day in undies. Listening to City and Colour, and Dashboard. And him singing to me when we drive. And I reallllly miss him rubbing my tummy and back until I fell asleep. Jus say'n.





I'm really excited about being vegetarin again. Cuz I'm sticking with it this time. And I've been eating really healthy. And drinking lots of water. I really miss my pink shades. I think I'm going to start staying home a lot more. The peole that contact me to hang out suck. And I'm really sick of them and they are sketchy.I want one or two good friends. That I can really trust. But fuckkkkkkkkk itttttttt.

ok so

I need to get my shiiiiiiiiit together for real. I need a fucking job and I'm not even stoked about it. I need a new phone. I think I'm going to go job hunting tomorrow. And be serious about it. I want to get a legit job. Something to take up my day. Save up some money. Get a car or something. DEFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF get my own place. Or enough money to get an apartment with some one else. It has to happen. I'm out of school. I do nothing all day. I do nothing to contribute to living at my house. And its starting to bother me. So thats what I'm going to focus on.
Fuck hanging out with friends every day that I don't trust. Fuck drinking and getting to fucked up every weekend. Fuck dudes. Plain and simple. I'm done trying with any guy I've talked to recently. Its going no where. I talk and talk to lots of people. Not even trying to pursue anything more then a friend ship. But I'm really sick of it.
And I'm rambling.
But seriously.
Fuck it.
I need to get it together.
Good byeeeeeee

I feel like SHIIIIIT

I really wish I had my phone cuz I took like 5 billion sweet pictures last night.
My head hurts really bad. My stomach feels like shit. I took a really long nap and I woke up and Beetlejuice was on! SICK! I'm really glad I decided to stay home today and not go out. Hopefully I'll wake up tomorrow feelings better. My mom isn't mad at me any more. I hate my hair blond. I need to dye it really bad. I'm so sick and so bored and everyone is out partying and I'm home with no one to talk to. I need to buy a new phone on craigslist. Hopefully my mom will lend me the money for it cuz I don't wanna be phoneless any longer >:0

I'm going to start a fire in my backyard.
And roast marshmellows with my dad.
Bla bla bla.

I'm never drinking ever again. Every single time I drink something bad happens. Me and Kylie are still in a fight. And I guess shes in jail now. I lost my phone,it might have been stolen. I went to the mall fucking trashed. Its not even cute. I get so gross and retarded when I'm drunk. NO NO NO NO NO MORE! My mom is real real mad at me. Cuz I didn't have my phone. And I forgot to call her last night. And she didn't talk to me since like 4 yesterday. So she didn't know where I was. I fucked up baaaaad. They think I'm going to go back to being how I was last summer. Like never coming home and shit. And my mom wants to put me back on probation.


UGH.I can't find Chris and I really wanna talk to him. And I wanna just get out of here. I might go to seabreeze. I need a shower.