Life right now. I think that I'm finally getting use to life with out Jake.Even though almost anything I do has a memory of him hidden some where. I'm over it. I really am.
Talking to a million different myspace boys isn't the way to go. You start to like one,and it back fires right in your face. I need to take it easy in the male department. I forget who I was talking to. But we were saying how we didn't want to settle for who we date anymore. Thats all I've ever done,settled. Well,you're here,you're cute,you're into me,lets date. I need an interrogation system. I need 100% trust. Good fucking luck,right? And to top off my shitty two weeks,I fucked up a friendship with probably the only guy that has MY best intrest in mind. Thank god he is so forgiving. I need some one on my team.
I went out with this kid the other night. I don't want him to know I'm talking about him! So I'll leave out what we did. Butttttttttt, it was nice. I felt like I could be my weird,awkward,silly self around him. Not saying I have a crush on him.because I'm not settling! But he COULD have potiential.
I think its pretty accurate to say that guys are gradually getting scummier and scummier. I talk to girls on occasion,and all I ever hear is how this guy and that guy fucked them over.
Meaningless sex is the new fucking relationship.
Nooooooo thanks.
It took me and jake dating for 10 months,and breaking up,to realize how much meaning having sex with some one has behind it.
Bla bla bla I'm rambling.
