I freaked. I flipped. I fucked up. I need need need a self control make over. I feel like an imature moron. The show was the worse. I didn't get home and fall asleep 'til around 4. I wake up due to Jake texting me a million times. He is taking the phone back,that HE bought me,and leaving me with nothing. So I finally got back to bed.Woke up around noon. Texted everyone back.Showered bla bla bla. I REALLY REALLY don't like how I get an update about what girl Jake is hitting on,or sleeping with. I DELETED HIM FROM MYSPACE FOR A REASON. I don't need/want to hear about every move he makes. Thank you for trying to make me feel better. But you are making me feel worse at the same time. I wish I could move out. Get an apartment with a friend,at least. I really need to be in Austin. Away from evey one for a while. I'm super bummed about my current boy situation. I finally find one that I really really like. And I think I could be happy with. And I KNOW I wouldn't ever ever ever fuck over or cheat on. And I can't have him. I literally did not stop smiling and laughing all day yesterday. I had BUTTERFLIES again ! I miss being giddy and happy and flirty. I wish we could be on the same page here,BOY!
Oh well. I'll be happy with what I got. I really want Taco Bell. But I don't wanna eat by myself.
