I am more in love then I have ever been,with any boy,over any period of time.And it scares the shit out of me.I'm so afraid to actually put 100% of me into anything. I've done so twice in my whole life. And both times ended up more hurt then I ever thought I could be. I want to be able to let my guard down and be myself and maintain a perfect,steady,cute relationship and I don't want that with anyone else but Chris. UGH I miss him. :(!!

Uhm.
My nose is really fucking itchy and runny. Fuck allergies.
I'm watching Rock Star. And painting my nails. And listening to my husband,Trevor.
UGH I wish I could rewind to like a month ago.
I wish I could fall asleep in his bed every night. Cuddle'n with my two boys.
UGH UGH UGH UGH.