To be friends.
I have to get over being so jealous.
Why am I so jealous even?
I have everything I want in life! Friends,a boy to flirt and cuddle with,endless supply of drugs and alcohol. Why can't I get over it !? I HATEHATEHATE thinkings of him dating some one else. Or sleeping with some one else. Or GOD FORBID living with some one else. In the apartment I helped pick out. On the corner where him and I met. That apartment holds so many memories and I hate to think of anyone else even in there.
This is for the better I think. We need to be friends. I need to stay close with him. I guess we are hanging out this week. And hes coming to a photo shoot with me. We'll see how hanging out again goes. Hopefully nothing like the last time.
I am striving for no sex. And not ONE tear.
We will see man !
